so everyone goes out and the sun is going down and im lying on the trampoline realising how i pretty much have no friends and the ones whom consider me a friends dont treat me like a friend and i dont respect them worth shit. so i go for what ends up to be a very philosophical 2 hour walk which makes me feel worse. i wlak around randomly and then miss my bus home so i walk back in the dark. i get home and find out the girl who apparently liked me but "wasnt ready for a relationship" a week ago has a boyfriend - she met him like a week ago. wow my luck with girl has got to be in the bottom 2 percent on this earth. fuck this blows

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she's obviously a prick, and you worry too much.

i liked this guy for almost 2 years, and then i realised that, it's not happening, it's not going anywhere.
now we're great friends, and i like that even more.

i know everybody tends to revert to this, after shit happens.
just think about yourself. spend time worrying about your bands
and don't let selfish people get you down.

you're a nice person, from what i've gathered from talking to you and everything.

SMILE lovely.

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I had that exact same, ive not got any friends thing like last night. Honestly, just imagine youre gonna have a beach party and write down the names of everyone you'd invite and youll be suprised at how many friends youve got. Maybe youre just one of those people (like i am) who has quite a lot of friends, but very few who you are really properly close to, but loads who you can chat to.
As far as the girl dealio goes, she is obviously a complete bellend. Youre a nice enough guy as ive found out so far and anyone who cant value you for what you are enough to be honest with you is obviously not worth a second look. So id move on.

Everyone has times like this as Stace said, but think positive and youll scrape yourself out of it soon enough

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AH, yes. bellend is a better word to describe her

as of this week, i've fell out with my two so-called best mates.
over me choosing an oppurtunity which is great for me, rather than some stupid parties/gigs with them.

it's that whole '2 best friends or 10 acquaintances' debate. what would you prefer/what's better?

you'll soon find the friends who matter and you respect and who respect you for everything you are. but, this day and age, just think of them as people who make the school days more bearable and less lonely.

seriously, it'll all fall into place sooner or later.

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give me a hand, it's time to show the new eyes their home.

YTMLWAR - yea i dont really have any friends, many aquantances but they dont treat me well, exclude me from shit and everything.

and i guess its easy to jump to conclusions that shes a terrible person, but shes not. its different when you are in the situation honestly. the only thing i have against her isnt she didnt tell the truth, and maybe she did and she just met a person who changed it all. it happens. its not her im mad at, its myself - very hard to get anything done when you aren't exactly appreciated.


but thanks for the input guys.

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Well, i had kinda the same problem . . But i don't know, people come, people go . . In my case that all turned quite unexpectedly in my favor, sort of. Every now and then some girl tries to get closer and closer to me and the next thing i now she won't let go . . I need such attachments, but they don't. I don't think I'll ever be able to have a stable relationship. All my depressions and all that otherr bs . . Alcohol, anti-depressives and so on. The only one i ever really loved i had to painfully let go so she wouldn't suffer because of my problems . She begged that we solve these problems together . . But these problems will never solve. Life sucks indeed, my friend. And i said . . People come, people go . . Just treasure those happy moments, however small or inexistent they might be. Look for them in the strangest and most banal places . . It is there where you will find what you are looking for. That's the best piece of advice i can give you . . Oh, and another thing: Don't mix up a bottle of Jack Daniels with Prozac and Beer and jump off the window of a second story building through a thick window and eventually landing with your foot in a fence. It's bad for you, i tell ya . .

There's always more to see, more to feel, more to experience . . Other than all the shit other people are putting you through. Just forget about them, don't mind them !

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Flashing lights and racing hearts.
Will you ever just slow down?
How did we end up here?
And all those sirens are getting louder.
Flashing lights and racing hearts.
I don't think we're gonna make it out.
This won't end well. (...Make it out...)
This won't end well.

thanks for the advice, but life is a hard game to play

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Yup, but while life is a hard game to play, there's really no other game to play anyways . .

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Flashing lights and racing hearts.
Will you ever just slow down?
How did we end up here?
And all those sirens are getting louder.
Flashing lights and racing hearts.
I don't think we're gonna make it out.
This won't end well. (...Make it out...)
This won't end well.

I think everyone goes through that stage where they are depressed and think they have no one, I definately felt taht way in highschool - especially when all my friends started dating and partying.

I guess all you can do is recognize who you have that could potentially be a close friend and build a relationship with them, and make an effort to meet new people.
Or you could do what I did and bottle everything that bothers you up and judge everyone and become totally indifferent to your state until you realise you want more but have no clue how to interact on a personal level (chose the first one..)

I hope my poor advice giving abilities haven't worsened your situation..

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